I have been thinking a lot about turning 40. I was unsure what to feel. I remember when I turned 30, the feeling was different. It was more about a feeling that I was reaching a point in my life when things were falling into place. Like a big puzzle where you were ready to put in the last piece! I hope that makes sense!
A lot of things happened to me during my 30s. I got married to my best friend, becoming a wife. Then we had 2 gorgeous little girls and so I became a mum! These have been moments and now memories that have marked my life!
Regarding my career, I decided to persue it in the UK even though I knew it meant I had to carry on studying in order to get my conversion in law. So this was another big achievement for me during my 30s.
Towards the middle of my 30s, I started to question everything. About my life and career. I was made redundant and things were starting to be difficult. During this period, I already had Bella and was looking to get pregnant again. I wasn’t ready to go back to work in an office again. I wanted to be around my daughter and I also wanted to focus on getting pregnant again.
During this period, Nick was happy to be able to support me financially for a few years while I was getting things more stable. I was grateful to have a supportive and understanding husband. This was very important to me. So I became a Stay At Home Mother.
After looking for more than 1 year and almost when I was starting to think that it wouldn’t happen (and that I should start looking for a job), a miracle happened. I became pregnant with Sienna! It was such a blessing for us!
I was fully committed to our new daughter and decided to breastfeed her full time and also I had her with me at home longer time than what we did with Bella.
During this period I was really concerned about what to do with my life! I felt lost. I was very happy to have started a family and also being able to be around them all the time but I knew I needed to find some answers to lots of questions that I had in my head. What would I do? Would I go back to practising law? Am I ready to go back to an office? Would I be able to cope? Will I have a new job? Will I be okay not being around my daughters if anything happens? I was getting older, so who would want to hire me?
I had all these questions in my head but I didn’t have any answers. I just didn’t know what would be best for me and our family. This was killing me! I was so stressed! Nick wouldn’t be able to pay for all of us forever so I had to find something quick!
This was my new challenge: finding a new job so I was settled perfectly for when Sienna started nursery at some point. I didn’t stop researching and looking for other ways to work from home and have flexible hours.
Suddenly after watching so many YouTube videos, I had an idea. It kind of just popped into my head! I thought why not try doing some videos at home to see how it goes. We made a few videos and we loved it but I needed something else. Something that goes along with the videos.
So I decided to have a blog too. I didn’t know how to start it but thankfully my hubby who works in IT guided me. I wanted to document our lives and be able to express myself that way. I was going to start one of the biggest adventures in my life!
I worked so hard during the first year. It was not easy. There is so much behind having a blog and a youtube channel. While I was breastfeeding during the night is when I drafted a lot of my posts. I was so tired but happy. My hours were ridiculous! Now, thinking back I think how crazy I was but it was necessary.
It was a 24hr job, like being a mother. My blog became my third baby! I took care of it very much and gave it so much love that it grew very fast within a year. I was earning money from my blog which was fantastic! I still had a lot of questions in my head. Would this now be my new job and career? Am I now a blogger? Is that my new job title?
Sienna breastfed until she was about 20 months. After that, she was ready to join our local nursery. Sienna needed more stimulation and being around other kids would be perfect for her. I was now in a position to do this because I was earning money so I was able to pay towards the nursery fees. So she joined our local nursery at 20 months old.
Bella was already at school so this meant that I would have some time just for me. I was so excited because I would be able to focus on my blog and channel even more.
The blog is doing very well and now it has become my full-time job! This was a dream that finally became a reality. I went through all these changes almost reaching my 40s. The last decade has been eventful for me. I am surprised at how it has turned out and I love it.
A few months ago, I was investigating about reaching 40 and having big changes in your life. I was a little bit scared of turning 40 and feeling old and that my life was over. The reality is that I feel younger than ever! I don’t think 40 scares me anymore. I think I AM NOW READY FOR IT!
Nowadays, 40 doesn’t mean you are old anymore. It has been researched that a lot of people go through big changes when they are reaching and going through their 40s. Some people like me change their careers, some just decide to start their families or some even decide that it is time to travel around the world!
This is AMAZING, right? Sorry for the long post and if you are still reading, thank you! I just wanted to end this post saying that if you are reaching 40 like me, do not worry because 40 is now the NEW 30! It is the time to experiment, let yourself go, search for your goals, find the way to happiness. Just do what you feel will fulfil you! And most importantly ENJOY LIFE!
Are you in your 40s or just reaching 40? Do you feel the same way? How are you finding it? Did you also go through changes?
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